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Stay The Fuck Home The Things I’m Going To Do When I No Longer Need To Stay The Fuck Home Edition!

Many are beginning to go a bit stir crazy now that we are 3 weeks into this pandemic, especially for you extroverts! I personally, am doing ok. I’m an introvert and have always been ok with spending time at home. There are things I do miss, I do enjoy being outside in the big blue room, over the last few years I’ve come to realize that my little goth heart actually does need some sunshine. Along with continuing to do creative and household things to stay busy, I’ve started creating a list of the things I want to do once we are on the other side of this thing.

See friends and family One of things I do miss is seeing my friends up close and personal. These friends are also considered my family. We have been having virtual phone dates, but it isn’t quite the same. One of the first things I hope we can do is get together for dinner and drinks!

Buy fabric! In order to keep busy, I’ve been finally finishing off a few sewing projects I had started, along with continuing with the Sew A Vintage Dress A Month Challenge. By the time this is all over, I will have sewn through my entire fabric stash. I’m actually getting close to the end of it, as I write this. I know I can order online, but I need to see and touch the fabric before I buy it.

Yoga in the park Last summer when we were walking through High Park, I noticed that there was a large group of people doing yoga. It is a weekly event. I have googled it and unfortunately can’t find any info, but as soon as the park opens again, I’m sure they will be back at it. Once I find out more, I can add it info here.

Eat out at my favourite places I have a bunch of places in our hood and around the city that I love to eat at. Some of my absolute favourites in my hood are See-Scape, Curry Twist, La Rev, Whelan’s and Thai by the Park. Close to me is the Skyline. In the west end of Bloomers, Machino Donuts and Discgraceland. I can’t wait to get back out and support them!

Killer B Cinema We’ve really been missing hosting our monthly event at See-Scape! In the meantime we are working on launching a YouTube Channel.

Walk through High Park I love that we are only minutes away from this park. In summer I love walk there, sitting somewhere to write or sketch, have lunch at the restaurant or take photos of all of its beauty. I’m also determined to go swimming in the pool this year.

Silent Movies I miss going to the monthly Silent Revue at The Revue and was looking forward to The Silent Film Festival that was happening in April. It’s ok though, all of these things have been rescheduled.

Long Walks through the city I love going on long walks. I love going on long walks through Toronto, stopping for lunch and taking in the hustle and bustle of the streets. Once we are able to, we will be taking the longest walk we have yet!

Go to the Island It’s been TWO YEARS since I have been to the island. Spring/Summer flooding has stopped most of use from going there. I’m hoping when all of this is over, the island will be an option for us this year!

Visit my parents My usual spring visit to my parents has to be put off due to the pandemic. Every few months I try to get up to their place and stay for a week. Am hoping by summer I can actually do this.

Picnic I’ve been craving a picnic! Anywhere!

Finally wear all of the lovely clothing I’ve been making As I’ve mentioned a few times in the blog, I’ve been sewing and knitting up a storm. I can’t wait to finally wear all of these lovely garments.

Have a BBQ with friends Last but not least, once we are out of this, we will be having friends over for a BBQ! Oh yes we will!

Stay The Fuck Home The Move Your Ass Edition

One of the possibilities of self-isolation is we won’t get enough exercise. Self-isolation doesn’t mean sitting on a couch all day binge watching everything on Netflix or gaming until your thumbs off. Exercise will help with your stress levels and hopefully keep you from having a heart attack.

Here is a list of at home work outs and yes, I’ve included YOGA! Did you really think I wouldn’t. Don’t be like that. I’ve also included exercises for kids. They need to keep moving too! Plus, you can do the exercises with them and make it a family workout!

Yoga With Adriene
https://www.youtube.com/user/yogawithadriene

Self has a great list of at home work outs.
https://www.self.com/gallery/best-at-home-workouts-bodyweight

Nerd Fitness work out!
https://www.nerdfitness.com/blog/the-7-best-at-home-workout-routines-the-ultimate-guide-for-training-without-a-gym/

25 Min Low Impact Cardio Workout for Beginners
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8YsjljHt2M&list=PLX588G6cM3T40wujWmydqqnzQxQhXTkcm&index=2&t=822s

30 minute fat burning home workout for beginners
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gC_L9qAHVJ8&list=PLX588G6cM3T40wujWmydqqnzQxQhXTkcm&index=3&t=0s

Fun, low impact workout for TOTAL beginners
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H0c-4nZjIWQ&list=PLX588G6cM3T40wujWmydqqnzQxQhXTkcm&index=4&t=0s

Family Fun Cardio Workout
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5if4cjO5nxo

Home Exercises for Kids
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHVR2FnTpdk

Stay The Fuck Home Entertain Yourself Edition

I’ve been seeing a lot of posts from friends witnessing way too many people out on the streets and in generally populated areas, including lounging in parks. Apparently, there are still people who don’t understand social distancing. The only times you should be going out is for groceries/supplies and exercise.

If you miss interacting with you friends, you can have virtual coffee or a Netflix Party. Platforms like Google Hangouts, Zoom or Facebook allow video conferencing.

As mentioned another fun thing to do is Netflix Party. https://www.netflixparty.com/

You can also live stream from YouTube or Facebook. Get a dance party going!

If you want to do things on your own, you can get caught up on reading or learn something new. Here are a few suggestions.

Open Culture has a TONNE of free ebooks http://www.openculture.com/free_ebooks

Go learn about ancient botany. https://botany.edwardworthlibrary.ie/ancient-botany/ancient-botany-2/

Take a virtual museum tour. https://www.huffingtonpost.ca/entry/virtual-tours-canada-museums_ca_5e7275c2c5b6eab77941338d

My friend Diana Coatsworth is teaching you how to do sewing basics such as sew on a button! https://www.facebook.com/diana.coatsworth.7/videos/10163201173745634/

Ask Sarah Has a lot of sewing tutorials and hacks. https://www.asksarah.com.au/

Draw something, even if you haven’t for years.

Find a cooking video on YouTube.

Do Yoga or some other form of exercise.

Dig out that copy of Macbeth you’ve had since High School and start acting out scenes.

Go through your closet and have a fashion show. This also helps you purge items you don’t need and someone else could use!

Learn how to do the CanCan! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HL2g1WuuqKU

Adult Colouring http://www.openculture.com/2019/02/download-free-coloring-books-from-113-museums.html?fbclid=IwAR1exfo2aaUsahjbaGwue9yeJL9jhkPFVDkQFpGFCBspII4HMqHet0wyDg4

There are soooooo many things you could be doing at home. You don’t need to be out with your friends or meeting up in parks! Be responsible!!!

Achieve!

Oh no! Not a yoga post! YES! A yoga post! This is also a post about achievement.


What have you recently been able to do that was hard to do a week, a month or a year ago? Today, I was able to straighten both of my legs for Triangle Pose. Yesterday I conquered my fear of buttonholes. (They still aren’t perfect, but I did it without hesitating — they normally give me anxiety). I may not have figured out how to build a rocketship (don’t do that, also the earth is not flat) or did a calculation to get us to the moon, but I did two things that I wasn’t able to a few days ago.


What were your achievements? What are you hoping to achieve?


Today I’m hoping to get another chapter almost done. I’m leaving early for an appointment so I can get some walking in. Tomorrow I am determined to do a full plank pose… even if for a few seconds. Your achievements or goals don’t need to be huge, they just need to make you happy!


Back to Yoga! Don’t think yoga can be fun! This is why I LOVE Yoga With Adriene! She makes it fun! She also has a Yoga for Zombies video too!

I decided to build my own 31 Day Challenge with her videos. I made the playlist public if anyone wants to do it with me! I’m starting with video #1 tomorrow. The last few days I was picking and choosing videos that went with my mood that day.

Shame, Shame, Double Shame!

This week has not been off to a great start. Last night I was starting to get a migraine, likely weather related and fell asleep on the couch. Never a good thing on both counts. No one wants a migraine and falling asleep on the couch usually means a fitful sleep. We were fortunate to have a couple nice days and now there is a shift in the weather again and not only has it given me a headache, the shift may have stirred up some residual memories and feelings. These things I thought I’d let go keep popping up again.

If you’ve read my blog, you may or may not have come across a few posts about being bullied in High School for being different. For the longest time I called it being picked on, but in fact, it’s bullying. In my case I fought back, however, it still affected me. Being treated that way made me feel as if I was even more of an outsider and it pushed me to move out of that small town. I also had to learn at a very early age that I was going to have to take care of myself. No one else was going to stick up for me. It made me tough and independent. This doesn’t always happen. In many cases bullying has the opposite affect and to heart-breaking results.

In the case of myself, I tried over time to not think about it as much. I tried to let those feelings go. Yet, in my dreams it will pop up from time to time. After being fat shamed the other week, I felt horrible for a few days, then I made an effort to let it go. I’m wondering if last nights dream was that feeling stirring up again. Shaming someone will do that.

In the dream, two friends and myself are at a Rockabilly bar. One of them recognizes a man, who is standing by himself, from a Toronto band from the 1980s. (in my dream I remembered this band, when I woke up this morning it left me) They invite him to sit at our table. The conversation is fun. There is some reminiscing, lots of laughter and everyone is participating in the conversation. The musician even talks about how their band is going to start up again now that 80s music is so popular again. Then it happens. He looks directly at me, and says, “You are so fat and ugly, no one would fuck you.” At that moment everything had gone quiet, the music, the sounds of conversations, everything. Then, after he stopped talking, it started up again. He then looked away and said he had to go to the bathroom and the two friends (male) both said they needed to go as well. I then waited for what felt like a really long time and when they didn’t come back, I left. When I left the bar, my feet were suddenly bare and there were shards of ice everywhere. I had to choose to go back into the bar or walk on the ice and I kept walking. Then the dream ended.

Shaming is bullying.

In the last few years I’ve really struggled with my weight. I went from being slender and physically active, to hurting my knee, unable to exercise and gaining weight. Menopause hasn’t helped. I used to have a friend who said things such as, “Hey fatty!” When I would tell her that was a horrible thing to say, she would then say, “Just KIDDING!” In her mind twisting it into a joke made it ok. Guess what! It’s not OK! It’s never ok! EVER!

Bullying and shaming hurts the victims. Every single time. It has to stop!

How did I get to this blog post today? This morning when I went to begin yoga, I didn’t feel like it. I was tired, I still have a headache and the dream was bothering me. I was going to do an intense core practice today and rather than do nothing at all, I chose the Fill Your Cup video. It is a 22 minute video and was just what I needed, also hearing Adriene’s voice, telling me it’s ok to feel the way I feel and it helped. Doing this practice every day is helping my mind as well as my body. During the practice I kept coming back to why I can’t let go of how horrible I feel about being bullied and shamed, then started to feel heart-broken for those who are pushed to suicide because of it. Bullying has to stop!

If you are being bullied or feeling helpless, lost and suicidal I am including links to helpline’s. I know you may not feel like you can talk to anyone, but please, if you can, contact one of these helplines.

Bullying Canada — https://www.bullyingcanada.ca/
Canada Suicide Prevention — https://www.crisisservicescanada.ca/en/

Bonus! Aka Day 31

Bonus content! AKA Day 31. Don’t worry, this is the last daily post about yoga. Some have been loving my daily posts… some have been absolutely hating it. 🤷‍♀️


Today I did an intense video because I wanted to challenge myself and I also wanted to see how far I’d come. It was hard and I shook and there was a position I couldn’t hold all the way to the end and my legs are going to hurt tomorrow! Will they ever! However, if I don’t challenge myself and if we don’t challenge ourselves, what’s the point. I’ve gone through life jumping in to many situations because they would be learning experiences (good ones, sometimes they turned out bad). I would go for job interviews and not have 1/2 the skills required and say I did and when I got the job, busted my ass to learn those skills before showing up for day 1. Hell, I quit a day job to write full-time! Yes, a lot of it is scary, but… we have to not let fear stop us from trying.


When we were kids my Dad built a treehouse. I was scared to go up the ladder because I didn’t know if the treehouse would fall down. Once I got up there, I was terrified to climb back down and had to get my Dad to help. Two days later I stood at the bottom of that damn tree wanting to go back up into the treehouse. I had to talk myself into it, but I did it. I climbed up and yes the journey back down the ladder was slow and cautious, but after that point, I kept going into the treehouse. Yes, mostly to annoy my brother, but… you get my point!


This weightloss journey is one huge challenge. I’m doing it for my health. I went from being fit and slender to messing up my knee, not exercising, being sedentary and then whammo menopause. All of this had me put on weight. Now… I am fighting the battle to get it off.


Who is still doing the Yoga challenge? What have been some of your life challenges?

Day 30

Day 30! Today was a really challenging workout and I loved it! It was also done without Adriene talking. She wanted us to use our 30 days of practice and it was a great way to show me how far I’ve progressed! I was actually able to grab my toes in the seated position (legs stretched out). Couldn’t do that day 1. Also further proof my belly is shrinking!


When I was a teenager, my Grandma Betty gave me an old Instamatic camera and an 8 mm movie camera. Neither worked, but both intrigued me. Eventually, my parents gave me a working camera for my birthday and I went photo taking crazy.


Fast forward a few years, after graduating college for Graphic Design, I felt like something was missing, so I took a college course for photography. For a while, I worked in both fields, but I didn’t feel either stretched my mind creatively. Photography then became more of a hobby.


Fast forward a few more years and I did something I still regret to this day. In a desperate situation and between that fine line of being evicted and living on the streets, I sold all of my photography equipment so I could pay rent. Doing so kept me off the streets, but it took something away from me that I cherished. For years after that, I considered buying a new camera to restart photography, but could never afford a camera or at least the one I wanted.


Fast forward to a few years ago, my husband and family I created Cate and Laurie all went in together to buy me a camera. Even to this day, I can’t even begin to explain how much it meant to me. Though I don’t get out as much as I want. I have been and this year (once winter passes) I plan on getting out even more. It brings me so much joy. More than I will ever be able to express.


What brings you joy? Who made it to day 30 or are you still going. Tomorrow I am starting to go through her other videos. I also will stop posting daily about yoga. I will post from time to time about my progress.